5/18/2006

This is the sound that I make
These are the words I chose
Somehow the right thing to say
Just won't come out
Just won't come out
Well now, You're laughing out loud

I didn't plan for this entry to appear and I really shouldn't be here. So here are 4 things, quickly.

1. I wouldn't say we're close, but then we aren't strangers either. I mean, you do come to me sometimes when you've got a problem. Sometimes I do too. I think that sometimes, we're trying too hard to pretend that we aren't so very different. We're somewhere in between, and when you really think about it, what we have is really a kind of.. awkard friendship. I don't show it very much so I doubt you'll know this but, maybe that's why I find it so difficult to approach you, even if all I want to do is to ask you to cheer up. I don't like the way things are going for you, and I can't say I really understand what you're going through now. There are so many sides to you, I don't know which one to look at. All I can do is accept you for who you are. The trouble is, your um, dimensions make it hard for me because I have no idea how you will react to whatever I say - meaning, I'm not sure whether you'll react positively or negatively. That's what frustrates me. But whoever you are, the bottomline will always be that I just want you to be happy. Genuinely happy. Not some temporary high cause of .. people and all that junk. You're only 14/15. Don't throw your time away. People are just about as happy as they make up their minds to be. So things have been screwing up lately, but that's no reason to fall flat on your face and lie there for the rest of eternity. Pick yourself up. Do it for yourself, not for anything or anyone else. Can't seem to find the motivation? Maybe you could try looking inside yourself. I'm not very sure whether you'll read this - I'll leave that to you to decide.

2. Life's meant to be short so don't waste time pretending to be sad/upset/sian. No one's taken in and it's just annoying, fake and makes you quite a sympathy searcher. Plus, it does you no good. You might even have convinced yourself that you're really sad. WHAT IS THE POINT of making yourself miserable? I've got a feeling that you're doing it only because saying that you're sad makes you seem like you've got more depth. Well, have I got news for you. It really doesn't. You're just lying to yourself and everyone else.

3. Exams start next week & Mum's coming over on Saturday (!!!!). Jess is a genius because she's helped me find a way to actually work my art final piece/exam<3.

4. We are still the champs and I still can't believe it. Will also never forget THE surprise. HAHAHA, I can't get over it! :DD (Ask me if you don't know it, I don't really want to shout it out on the WWW. Heh - quite paiseh :/) Display board also contains quite a few of the most unglam pictures I have ever taken. Hurr. But that doesn't actually matter, they do bring good times to mind after all :D Training's officially over and I'm feeling quite deprived though it's only been what.. 5 days since the finals? Haha, ahwells. (:

HAHAHA & yes, Bairavie just came online. This is her screenname:

haha, xun laughing while trying to blow a book off leah's head, cracked me up

YES, BAIRAVIE. Hahah, love her. Anyway, it was the funniest thing, happened in english. Sound made = hoo hoo hoo. Yes, I'm sure everyone wanted to know that.

Alright byeeee xD Geog awaits.

:D
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